Since uploading my vid-blogs, I have felt out of sorts; I've been in a state of turmoil I suppose. Tonight though I have put my finger on the crux of it all. I have been very worried about your opinions of me, and the videos. All I can think of is you out there watching my vid-blogs and either cringing with embarrassment, laughing at the fool that is moi, or stopping them after 10 seconds. All of these reactions are not ideal in helping with ones self esteem.
So, I want to say this. Take me, take the videos, with a pinch of salt.
Not literally. I don't want to have the health standards agency on to me about my part in the sudden increase of high blood pressure across the nation.
I mean, I have really had an excellent time putting these videos together; I got to talk about something I am interested in; it wasn't a great review of the film, yet that wasn't the point.
I wanted to put myself out there in a different way, a way that excites me and interests me. I needed something to talk about so that I had something to record and play with, but essentially the fact that I was reviewing a big film is neither here nor there.
I bet for the majority of the time you watched the videos, you were focusing on me - my face, my gestures - and not on what I was actually saying, and THAT is what the point of it was. I said this a few posts ago - promise, I did - but I think I just forgot. I have been scrutinizing the videos for bits that could ruin my street cred (I think I may have just ruined it myself by actually uttering the words 'street cred'...how embarrasing!) and panicking about how people will take the review. But, you know what? From here on, I am worrying no more.
I put myself out there and its funny, if nothing else. I would like to think the videos aren't a complete flop but it is not the end of the world if they are. They serve a purpose much greater than just entertainment for me (see post '...a video blogger' for further explanation).
So to sum up: video blog, pinch of salt, done.
Please leave some comments about the place to let me know how you think this is all coming on, that would be delightful. Over and out.
georgia, i watched the videos today and they were great!!! it was nice to watch someone talk about something they have a passion for. putting yourself out there is so important, and is something i really struggle with. i know the courage you had to actually post those videos, i've tried video blogging and was too scared of what people thought so i never actually posted them. it's so inspiring to see you do what you want to and not care what people think anymore. thanks for the reminder <3
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